For a Monday I can’t complain:
- Running in the rain, early in the morning.
- Yummy coffee in a new mug, in one of my favourite colours.
- And a lovely floral gift.
Now, let’s do some work!
For a Monday I can’t complain:
Now, let’s do some work!
It’s early afternoon, just after lunch and you can’t keep your eyes open. It would be great to just lie down on the couch, with a little blanket to keep warm, close your eyes and forget about everything, just for a little while, twenty minutes, half an hour max.
Much better and more effective than having a strong cup of coffee.
Since leaving my full time job and having the chance to work from home, I have been indulging regularly in short naps.
I have the perfect excuse: I’m more of a night person, I tend to work till late, but still wake up at a reasonable time in the morning, so I deserve to have a little break and catch up with my sleep.
Also most of the time I have no choice, I can’t concentrate on anything and I waste more time forcing myself to do things than taking half an hour out of my “busy schedule” to recharge.
I really don’t need more than 20 minutes, so it’s not a big deal, it’s more about giving myself the permission to do it, without feeling guilty.
It occurred to me yesterday though that I haven’t had a nap in a while. And I had to analyse the reason(s) why.
I guess the reason is very simple: the last two weeks I have spent my days mostly painting and I didn’t feel the need for a nap, I don’t even remember getting sleepy till very late at night.
Is it that I am doing something that I love doing, so I don’t feel tired or bored?
Is it that maybe when I’m painting I need less energy that when I’m working designing and coding a websites?
All of the above?
Something else that I haven’t thought about?
Whatever the reason I realise that’s the way I like to work, that’s the way it should be, being so engrossed in what I’m doing that I forget about the rest, that I don’t feel hungry or sleepy.
And that happens only when I’m working on my art.
It’s still ok to have the occasional nap. I think they are great, not just to recharge, but to clarify ideas, projects. I had so many epiphanies thanks to naps!
But I’m talking about something else here.
I’m starting to think that often I need a nap because I don’t fully enjoy what I’m doing, that I still see what I’m doing as a “chore”, something that I have to do, more than something I’ve chosen to do.
I thought I was moving away from that, I thought I was doing what I liked.
And that’s exactly right, I’m doing something I like, while I could be doing something I love.
This “discovery” couldn’t happen at a better moment.
Just last week I was writing in my journal that it was ok to just do my art for myself and for art’s sake, without trying to sell anything and earn a living from it, that I can do other things, that I do other things to earn money, so no need to make of my art a business…a concept that I’ve always felt strangely uncomfortable with, while at the same time trying to achieve.
Of course, the moment I decide to give up the idea of creating something financial viable with my art, I realise that actually I shouldn’t give up, that in the end that’s what I love to do the most. And that should be the next natural step in my journey.
Whatever else I do (and I will still do till I need to do it) is never going to be enough.
I don’t know, I might change my mind again next week, when I realise that I have no idea how to go about it, that all that I have tried already didn’t work and in general I’m not very good at the practical side of the art business.
But for now that’s what I’m thinking. And it was all thanks to taking (and not taking) naps.By the way, after all this, I might just have one….yawnnnn!
Such a grey day!
Not that I felt like going for a walk this morning, but I had to run a few errands.
On my way back I took a shortcut through “my backyard” Brokwell Park and could not help myself, I had to take a few snaps.
Now back to the studio!
I spent the week mostly unplugged, so I haven’t “consumed” as much digital content as usual.
Here’s a few of my favourite finds:
With monday being bank holiday and all.
I didn’t even bother with a
to do list…wishlist, I just went free styling and enjoyed that very much.
Of course I didn’t end up doing much apart from painting, but that’s fine.
I still have the new version of my gallery site to finish (and I did give myself a DEADline for September…but I didn’t specify when in September. Smart move), but I have time for that…if I make time of course.
That’s going to be in next week wish list. I have to remember to make one.
It was also a good time to think and reconsider plans, paths, ways to achieve them. And in general I took the (nearly unanimous) decision to take it easier, not to stress about it, and just follow my own way.
In the last year or so I have been reading so much (too much) about other people’s journey and successes, there is so much information around the internet!
And that can be overwhelming.
I thought I should do more, I should do better, and nothing seamed to be enough. Till I felt like giving up.
But that’s not the solution.
In the end we are all different people, and what works for one might not work for another.
It definitely doesn’t work for me, I’m such an exotic specie (and I believe we all are). The only way that works for me is the one that I try and experiment and find on my own.
It’s also more fun.
I feel less pressure now. I’m giving myself more space to create, to experiment and to mess things up, both in art and life.
Now I’m off to enjoy the weekend. Lovely weather in London, feeling the end of summer feeling, perfect day to spend in the park, looking at the changing sky.
Hope you have a great one too.
I have been spending most of the week painting, practically ignoring everything else.
That hasn’t happened in a long while. Too busy designing and coding websites, both my own and my clients. So it was really nice to put all that aside for al little bit and get my hand dirty again.
I have been painting something completely different, forgetting the creatures for a while.
(Not really. I still draw them regularly and enjoying that very much).
But as painting goes, I have been playing with shapes and colours, creating interesting abstract little canvasses. I find the activity extremely freeing…is that the right word?
When I paint creatures the approach to the work is completely different.
I consider the paintings of creatures as a sort of coloured drawings really, the drawing is the important element. There’s very little excitement in the painting bit, especially after the first layers of colours are done. In fact sometimes if the painting part takes too long I might get bored and leave the work unfinished.
Also it’s a very precise and in a way restrictive process. I like it that way, I like the precision of it, but sometimes I need to break from that.
Lately I have been looking at different ways to make art, a different approach to projects. I have been looking at art for art sake, for the pleasure to play with the elements (and with that I mean materials), get more visceral and less controlled with my work. I have been looking at using different materials, different subjects, actually getting rid of subjects altogether.
I started with some works on paper, using very diluted water soluble oil colours, playing with shades and shapes and applying decorative elements once the base was dry (it seems I’m not really able to let go of the drawing part, even for a little bit).
From there I moved onto canvas, creating completely abstract work. First the blobs of colours where random and shapeless, then I moved into more geometrical form, trying maybe to control the initial chaos of colours (although calling it chaos is too much, my choices of colours are always very controlled, not more that 2/3 at any one time).
The results are abstract in the strictest sense of the term.
I am going to continue the project in the hope to find my own abstract language. At the moment everything is too…already seen and done.
And I can’t have that. (:)